L Kamau: WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT??

L Kamau: WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT??: "If I don't know how to be poetic from today, am not sure when I shall start." Life always has a surprise for each one of us daily,but i don...

WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT??

"If I don't know how to be poetic from today, am not sure when I shall start." Life always has a surprise for each one of us daily,but i don't know how i shall deal with this surprises. What I thought to be a beautiful dream now seems like a bitter reality. Words i now seem to identify with.

Its all a scope of memories that come but he never does I think part of me knew that this could happen its not what he said or did but the feeling that came with it thing is,i don't know if am ever going to feel the same or even if i should i knew his world moved too fast and his fire too bright but, i thought how can the devil be pulling me toward a person so much like an angel when he smiles at me maybe he knew that when he saw me maybe i lost my balance and, the worst part wasn't losing him but, losing ME.

He took me to places i never had been,i was drowning and now am on the hard concrete ground. Cloud nine is an understatement for what i thought we had. Still in a daze for reality has now set in. Thought you would be happy for having me, the one thing you needed but seems it was all a game. Now that i got my heart, though in tiny little pieces i can now start my journey all the way back. it will take a long time to get there but am a brave girl I'll get there. Don't be surprised. I'll never be perfect but now am brave. If you were worth a while you'd be happy to see me smile. I'm not expecting sorry cos am busy finding myself. If this is a letter of hope or a long quote I do not know. Maybe its a feeling, maybe just words or poetry in the making. All I know is that it feels good to have written it.