MY CLOUD IS DARK

OOOOhhh how i do not feel like doing anything. Tired of doing nothing yet not doing something. It is true that every day has its own evil, and its good too. But how difficult must life be, especially farther on when the evil of each day increases as far as worldly things go, if it is not strengthened and comforted by faith. And in Christ all worldly things may become better, and, as it were, sanctified. Theo, woe is me if I do not preach the Gospel; if I did not aim at that and possess faith and hope in Christ, it would be bad for me indeed, but no I have some courage. 2 up, 5 down Vincent Van Gogh quotes

AN ESCAPADE NEVER TO BE FORGETTEN

My mother once told me, "When the deal is too good think twice", but it was until just a few nights ago that i got to know the true sense of that statement. Just a few nights ago i had arrived home from school at about 7 P.M, very tired i must add. This was one of those days one calls beautiful cos i had accomplished most of my tasks on my to do list. Back to that night, I feel as if am reliving the moment again :). In that tired mode i walked into the room and collapsed on Mushkins bed. She was sleeping so i woke her up with my collapse. She gave me this joking nasty look which faded away as she embraced me in a big hug and smile. I think she must have been having a bad dream and was so relieved i woke her up, just saying but hoping that was not the case. After a long moment of pleasantries I left the room to visit the wash room. When I walked in I was greeted by smiley faces, that definitely not the same faces i left earlier so i looked a them with this weird look and asked,"why are your faces that cheerful, I don't think I have such an effect on you,#blush #blush". They laughed out loud saying how much they are happy to see me but i knew they were only joking around. They finally broke the good news to me, "We have been invited for dinner". Yeaaaaaa!!!!!! was all i said, but i questioned, All three of us? By who? Where? This is just the best night ever!!!!They told me that one of our girlfriends had just been invited for a friends birthday and HE was sufficiently philanthropic on his birthday. "Girl it's your lucky day" I told myself.

Surely surely hard work pays in the most unusual ways. This is a very very good day. I brushed my teeth, washed my face, put on fresh make-up and put on something warm. I was good to go. To juice it all up we were picked by one of the guy's friend, apparently a 'lawyer'. Ooh this was great! great! great! There was so much traffic so we took quite a long time to reach the City. Finally when we arrived we were dropped next to a very luxurious restaurant. I gave Mushkins this 'wow' look and exchanged smiles. As I was headed for the door our girlfriend stopped me telling me we weren't going in. I looked at her in this questioning look? "You mean we are being come for by a 'BOUNCER' V.I.P style?" I asked. When she burst out in laughter I knew either i had gone a bit too far or I read her mind, :)so i should just wait. That was not even to be the shock of the night, the real shock came when she told me that it was not the place we were headed and truth was that the Birthday boy actually had not arrived. I now wondered if it was supposed to be a surprise party or something of that sort but it was not. He was actually in another vicinity having his moment for life and we were supposed to wait. Wait?!?Since when do girls wait, I thought to myself but cos I had been invited i kept my mouth shut and waited. Waiting for someone on the streets is unheard of so our girlfriend asked us if we should either walk into the restaurant and order a drink as we wait or we walk around the city. We preferred walking around as we had stupidly not carried enough money to cater for meals and most especially not in that luxurious restaurant. Our walk was splendid as our City is beautiful at night with all the city lights. We walked until it got boring,and it was time to be wise and say enough is enough. We threatened our girlfriend that we were going home, but as we were walking towards the bus stop, it started to rain. The pissing thing was that the guy had even stopped picking his calls. This was a jinxed night, a very jinxed one too. How? To make things worse we did not have an umbrella. As we were waiting for it to reduce it got heavier and heavier. Luckily our girl friend met some old friends who work at a DVD store so we got to say hi and spend some time there waiting for the rain to stop. One of the guys was very handsome if I may add, wow! Now that was at least one good thing the night had dropped on us. We stayed there until they closed the store and we had to leave. We went to a fast food restaurant as it was still raining and ate some fresh fries and by the time we were through the intensity of the rain had reduced and our chance to head to the bus stop without getting very wet. We rushed and got into the bus and headed home. When we got to our destination, the rain started with a great intensity. By the time we got to the house we were drenched. What a bad night it was. Once bitten twice shy, such an offer i shall never agree to.

THE THIEF

INSECURITY!!! INSECURITY!!! INSECURITY!!! What is insecurity? The free dictionary simply puts it as the state of being susceptible to harm or danger. I thought i was living in a very secure environment until something saddening happened. I personally was not affected directly but I feel the effects creeping towards me slowly,day by day. The hood am currently living in is next to a very busy road,round the clock watch guards, security lights and even plenty of pedestrians during the day and night. Even with all this in place I must say that the place is not as secure as i thought or should i say, deemed it to be. Last week I retired home for the evening as is my usual habit, after a long day in school. I found my two roommates Mushkins and Dolly watching a movie, but being the chatterbox i am, they had to pause and listen to my long stories of how the day was, my new found hottie and crush, the typical girl talk. In the room i currently stay,we are supposed to be four in our room but currently are three.During that chit chat our care taker walked in with this adorable lady who was allegedly going to move in the following day. She came in and asked if we would mind if she moved in with us. We looked at each other and said,"well if you want join us its okay." She seemed so sweet and so we were all friendly to her. Later she decided to go on and check other rooms to see if she was 'MAKING THE BEST CHOICE'. Innocently we let her and we continued with our chit chat. A few minutes later she came in and claimed to love another room more and thus she would be settling there. We told her it was okay and did not dwell much on it and we continued with what we had been doing. We went and took supper and later after we were done, we took the plates to the kitchen only to be told that the lady was a thief and she had stolen a laptop. @_@ was the look our faces read when we were told. HOW? HER? THE SWEET GIRL? NO!!! YOU MUST BE MISTAKEN.... Was what was running in my mind. The owner and some of her friends tried to follow her and trace her but to no avail. "SHE WAS GONE!!!" What was our watchman doing? I thought. How could he let her go? After gathering all the tales of the encounter with the girl, we now realized that we had been victims of Foul play and now she had disappeared with someone's laptop. The safe hood was no longer safe and everyone was a suspect. I was traumatized and still am. How can a robbery happen in our home? When everyone is around? INSECURITY how have you turned me into a victim? Now i live in fear, knowing that someone may ponce on me any minute and my safety is at risk. When i walk in the streets everyone is a suspect, i clutch my purse a little bit tighter now, am always looking back to see if am being followed, always walking a little bit faster to get home which is a bit more 'secure' and always in fear of what could happen next. HOW DID WE GET HERE? WHAT SHALL WE DO???